changes

So I went down the rabbit hole and started reading entries from when I first started this journal, back in '04. A lifetime ago, it seems now. And wow, how my life has changed since then! Actually, it has changed a few times. Fortunately, nearly all for the better. I was getting PTSD from all the awful stuff I went through, and had to remind myself that things are pretty good now.

I also saw a lot of names in the comments that have dropped away from LJ, and I miss them. I've managed to keep in touch with a bunch of you, but there's a bunch more that I'm not connected with elsewhere, and I wonder how their lives are going. I wonder if they ever think of me. I guess it's like that in real life too, but it makes me sad to think of people I once thought of as friends just disappearing from my life.

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We're in that weird, in-between place that feels like spring one day, then back to winter the next. Late March & early April is the cruelest time of year, teasing us with a taste of what's to come and then taking it away again. I did see tulip & daffodil shoots, promising flowers soon. But I remember last April, when we had snow. It ain't over till it's over.