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Apr. 2nd, 2019 01:32 pm
lizziebelle: (raven)
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So I went down the rabbit hole and started reading entries from when I first started this journal, back in '04. A lifetime ago, it seems now. And wow, how my life has changed since then! Actually, it has changed a few times. Fortunately, nearly all for the better. I was getting PTSD from all the awful stuff I went through, and had to remind myself that things are pretty good now.

I also saw a lot of names in the comments that have dropped away from LJ, and I miss them. I've managed to keep in touch with a bunch of you, but there's a bunch more that I'm not connected with elsewhere, and I wonder how their lives are going. I wonder if they ever think of me. I guess it's like that in real life too, but it makes me sad to think of people I once thought of as friends just disappearing from my life.

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We're in that weird, in-between place that feels like spring one day, then back to winter the next. Late March & early April is the cruelest time of year, teasing us with a taste of what's to come and then taking it away again. I did see tulip & daffodil shoots, promising flowers soon. But I remember last April, when we had snow. It ain't over till it's over.
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Life has been pretty uneventful lately, but that's not necessarily a bad thing. Especially in winter. I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel; the willows are turning that yellowish color, and all the winter merchandise has gone on clearance in the stores. Hey, I bought a pair of $70 boots for $30, I know how to work the sales. All those years in retail haven't entirely gone to waste.

That handsome fella above is Izzie, my friends' cat. I was kitty sitting earlier this month, and as he and his sister were starved for attention, I got followed everywhere. Even to the bathroom. Silly beasts.

I'm making tentative plans for a possible trip to California. I have never been there, and an old friend extended an invitation to stay with him in L.A. last time he was visiting. And I know a couple of folks from here who live there, too. So I'll investigate fares, check with my friend for possible dates, and hope for the best. My niece, and my bro & sis-in-law, all visited there last year, and it's one of those places (like New York or D.C.) that I've seen on TV and in movies all my life. I have a list of places I want to see. If you've been, what were your favorite places?

looking up

Aug. 29th, 2018 03:50 pm
lizziebelle: (Default)
After so many setbacks and disappointments, things are finally settling into a good place for me. I don't want to be complacent, because I know situations can change without warning (as they have several times in the past few years), but I am cautiously optimistic.

Things are going well at work, which is a very good thing. I'm consistently one of the top producers in my department, which of course pleases this Leo. I've always been a little competitive. I've been making bonus every month since I was hired on permanently. It's so nice to not constantly worry about money for a change. That's a new thing for me.

I finally took the plunge and replaced the last big thing that needed upgrading: my car. The Santa Fe served me pretty well, but was teetering toward an expensive repair so I decided that money would be better put to use toward a newer car. I decided on the Kia Soul, after a couple of my friends bought them and said good things about them. I started looking at used Souls (and that conjures a few interesting images in my head), but the cars available that had the features I wanted were only a couple thousand less than a new one, so I figured I might as well look at new cars, too. New cars come with a nice long warranty, for one thing, and I wouldn't have to worry about how it was treated by a previous owner.

I went to the Kia dealer on Sunday and test drove a pretty green Soul, which I promptly fell in love with. They had just gotten her in a couple hours before, so she was brand-spanking-new. Five miles on the odometer! So I took a deep breath and started the process to buy her. I picked her up after work yesterday, and squeed all the way home. She's so pretty! And shiny, and new, and full of fun new features like a backup camera and Blue Tooth connectivity! The guy at the dealership showed me all the controls and how they worked, and connected my phone. I can listen to my podcasts in the car now! Whee!

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I haven't settled on what her name is yet, but I'm leaning toward "Fern." I want to drive her around a bit and get to know her before I decide for sure. Ferns are one of my very favorite things.

I'm looking forward to all the places we'll go, and the adventures we'll have together.
lizziebelle: (little me)
When I was little, I had three imaginary friends. Never one to do things in a small way, me. Their names were Ernie, Bird, and Hatusan. I'm not sure how Hatusan's name was spelled, as I couldn't read or write yet; it was pronounced hah-too-SAHN. Lest you think I got the idea for the names from Sesame Street, let me remind you that this was years before that program started. I did (still do) have an uncle named Ernie, but he was not the inspiration for my friend. I don't remember a time before they were around; I'll have to ask my mother, but they may even predate my sister, who was born when I was two and a half.

We had many adventures, the four of us. We explored my grandparents' farm, looking for ripe berries and dinosaur bones (which were probably cow bones, but try and tell that to a little kid). Grand adventures were to be had in the cornfield and the garden (where we stole peas and ate them right out of the pod). Being the oldest child, I often had to amuse myself, and I've always had a vivid imagination.

I don't remember what they looked like back then, but later on, I imagined them as crows (I suspect watching the show Heckle & Jeckle had something to do with that). When I was four, we moved way upstate to Keeseville, and the gang came with us. That's where we were joined by Bird's friend (he never had a name), who lived on Poke-O-Moonshine, a nearby mountain. Look at the picture of it in the article: that's exactly what I remember it looking like.

I don't remember when I stopped believing in Ernie, Bird, and Hatusan (and Bird's friend). It was probably around the time I started school. But I still thought about them for years, wondering where I came up with them, and that crazy name, Hatusan. It sounds sort of Japanese, or maybe Aztec. Were they memories of past lives? Local spirits? Or just the imaginings of a creative kid looking for playmates? I still have a vivid imagination, but I put it to other uses now. I do sort of miss having those companions, though.

little me
lizziebelle: (fox)
As I knew it would, winter has returned. At least this time it didn't bring more snow with it, just bitter cold. After the very mild temperatures last week, it feels even colder. I never even left the house yesterday, I just stayed cocooned in my apartment.

Earlier this week, the daffodils in front of my office gave us a tease of spring blossoms.

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We'll need a few more warm days before those buds bloom.

The most exciting thing from my week was the release of Doctor Strange on disc. It was my first Blu-Ray purchase. I have to say it was just as enjoyable the second time, and the extras were a lot of fun. Definitely my favorite Marvel flick so far.

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Yesterday was the 20th anniversary of my dad's passing. It seems unbelievable that it's been that long. I often think about him, especially when I see a movie or TV show that I know he'd like. I wish he could've seen his granddaughter grow up. He'd be so proud of her. She was the light of his life. I wish she could've had more time with him, like I had with my grandfather. Life is so short, and it goes by so quickly.
lizziebelle: (fox)
Each winter is weirder than the last. This year, we seemed to have it all in one week, with 3 snowstorms and bitter cold, followed by unseasonably warm weather. Last weekend, I went for a walk around Gates Pond with my friend B and her dog, Puck. There was still snow in the woods and ice on the water, but the road was mostly mud, punctuated by the occasional ice patch. People were jogging in shorts and tank tops.

The past three days have been downright springlike, nearly 70°F (22°C). We ate lunch outside on our patio at work the past two days, and there were daffodils sprouting in front of the building.

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Right now, I have the doors open, and it's 75° in my apartment. The heat hasn't come on in more than three days. Thanks to Facebook's "On This Day" feature, I see that it was bitter cold at this time the past couple of years. I really don't like to complain about nice weather, but geez. This is downright weird.

Being a lifelong Northeasterner (and longtime New Englander), I know winter isn't finished with us yet. We will likely get at least one more storm, and more cold weather. I just hope the trees don't bud too early and then freeze; that happened last year, and ruined much of the peach crop.

Other than the weather strangeness, not a lot has been happening around Chez LizzieBelle. Just trying to get through each day has been as much as I can handle. I've had to cut back on my social media intake, because there is just too much anger and scariness out there. I'm doing what I can do, and that's all I can do at the moment. Still trying to seek out the beauty and the goodness, because otherwise I wouldn't be able to cope at all. I'm really proud to see the budding activists amongst the younger generation in my family, though. My generation may have dropped the ball, but they're picking it up and running with it.

This morning, I went over to mum's to help her out with some housework and shopping. She's still pretty weak from having a cold, and was recently diagnosed with COPD thanks to her asthma and the recurring pneumonia the past couple of years. I do worry about her. It's hard to see a parent decline from the strong person who raised you. But she's stubborn enough to want to fight, and that's a good thing. She's not ready to give up just yet.

We had tacos from the delightful taqueria in Canton, and called my sister to wish her a happy birthday. I was exhausted, but it was a good visit.

I wanted to stop at the Arboretum on the way home, but by then it was raining, so I settled for stopping at Trader Joe's to stock up on noms. Not as much fun, but now I have lots of yummy food in my freezer and cupboards. I wish they'd open one closer to me, but then maybe that wouldn't be a good thing. Not as special.

What are you up to this weekend? Something fun, I hope!
lizziebelle: (crow)
We didn't quite get the 12+" that were forecast, but we still got a respectable amount of snow today. Hard to tell with all the blowing and drifting, but it looked like at least 8". I know they got more out in the western part of the state (see [livejournal.com profile] asakiyume's latest post). It took me a good hour to shovel off the deck, stairs, and around my car. :::oof:::

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At least I didn't have to drive in it. My employers let everyone work from home today. I've never done that before. It was a little strange doing my job in my living room, but it was so nice not to worry about driving in the snow or missing a day of work. We use Slack (a chat app), and it was fun reading everyone's updates throughout the day. I especially enjoyed peoples' lazy pet photos that they posted.

It's been a weird winter. Pretty mild, by New England standards, but February is always the worst month, weather-wise. Yesterday, it was in the high forties after starting out coated in ice. Quite the rollercoaster. It's true what they say about the weather here: if you don't like it, just wait five minutes.

When the weather gets like this, it feels like spring is a million years away. Especially after getting a tease of it, like we did this week. It doesn't help that I see pictures of snowdrops and daffodils from friends in warmer climes. It's not that I hate winter; I just wish it didn't last so long.
lizziebelle: (sherlock)
I went out last night with some girlfriends, for the first time in ages. I really should do that more often. My typical Saturday night is spent in front of the telly or with my nose in a book.

We started out at the Rail Trail Flatbread Pizza place, which I hadn't been to yet. It's a popular spot, and is credited with beginning the revival of downtown Hudson. We ended up not getting pizza, but instead nibbled on appetizers and sipped lovely craft cocktails and cider. There was much giggling, and two of our lot explaining how to brew hard cider at home to the waitress was very entertaining. I'm pretty sure she's going to give it a try.

We then crossed the street to New City Microcreamery, which is owned by the Rail Trail folks. Instead of getting in line for ice cream, however, we headed to the back and flicked on a light switch by a door. A little door in the wall popped open, a man asked us how many, and then closed again. Then the door opened and we were ushered in, past a black velvet curtain, to an authentic-looking speakeasy. Lots of dark wood, low lighting, and U-shaped booths lined the long, narrow place. We ordered more apps and craft cocktails, and enjoyed the ambiance. I had a frozen grasshopper, half dessert and half cocktail. All delicious.

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They made it like New City makes their ice cream: with liquid nitrogen. While waiting for the restroom, I watched the bartender make another frozen drink in the KitchenAid mixer; fog billowed out of the bowl while the mixer whirled. It was really cool, both literally and figuratively. Next time, I want to try the frozen Old Fashioned.

Next Saturday, I'm planning to go into Boston for the Women's March. D.C. is not doable for me, but a bunch of local friends are planning to go, so we'll all take the train in together. I want there to be a huge turnout, everywhere there is a March happening. This is historic. We can't let the Nazis get away with it. Yes, IMO it's that dire. The stuff that the GOP is pulling is positively fascist. I cannot understand how anyone could vote for any of them. I truly fear the ending of our Union as we know it.

Before the revolution, however, I'm really looking forward to the season finale of Sherlock. OMG this season has been intense! I will likely go see it again in the theatre this week. Such an amazing show.

How was your weekend?

Thankful

Nov. 24th, 2016 11:09 am
lizziebelle: (artsy me)
golden clouds over the atrium

Despite all the awful things going on in the world, I'm spending time this week practicing gratitude. It is, after all, the original meaning behind Thanksgiving.

I have a lot to be thankful for. I have an awesome new job, a roof over my head, enough to eat, a relatively comfortable existence. What I am most thankful for, though, is my network of friends and family (this includes all of you, BTW). Sometimes I am astonished at the love they show me. It gives me hope for humanity, which is sometimes hard to come by.

So I'm trying to not dwell on the things I wish I had, and be grateful for everything I do have.
lizziebelle: (artsy me)
Sorry I haven't been posting much lately, but I have been reading all your posts!

Still not really spring (we had snow again last Monday). Mom was back in the hospital this week, this time with pneumonia, and now she's at a rehab center to make sure she's well enough to go home.

I went to a wedding last weekend, for two awesome friends who deserve all the happiness. That was fun, and it was good to see folks.

Yesterday, I went to Springfield with [livejournal.com profile] sea_dark_wine, [livejournal.com profile] justjanus, and [livejournal.com profile] leenah to check out The Student Prince restaurant. Their specialty is German food, and it was very good. I had spatzle, which had a cheesy sauce and crispy fried onions on top. My mom used to make spatzle with caramelized onions. Everyone's entrees were delicious. I lived near Springfield for ten years and had never been there, mainly because I didn't have the money for frivolous things like dinner out. Hopefully I can go back and try some other things!

After stuffing ourselves, we walked up to the museum quadrangle and admired the Dr. Seuss sculpture garden, and found this awesome metal sculpture of a dragon:

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It's made with all sorts of random metal objects like flatware, saws, garden fencing, wrenches, and the like. It was fun to identify various things, and it's a very cool sculpture.

We opted not to go into the museums, feeling more like we needed a nap at that point. But it was fun to go there, and it was good to see friends and get out of the house.

Of course, that used up all my ambition for the weekend, and I haven't gone out at all today. It was a good day to catch up on reading.

How was your weekend?
lizziebelle: (fox)
It was a pretty intense week. It started out by snowing on Monday morning, which I took as an insult as it was the second day of Spring. To add insult to injury, so to speak, as I was pulling into the parking lot at work, the snow plow driver neglected to look and see if anyone was coming before plowing through right in front of me. We saw each other at the last second, but neither of us was able to get out of the way fast enough, and the front left corner of my car scraped along the side of his truck, crumpling the fender and part of the hood. I went through stages of disbelief and anger, and finally sadness every time I see the damage to my poor baby. It's driveable, and the headlight even still works, but it's a pain to deal with and I'd really rather not have to. The good things are that I can drive it until it gets fixed, nobody was hurt, and it wasn't my fault so I don't have to pay for it. I keep reminding myself that it could have been a lot worse. But still... grr. Argh.

Friday was the last day of the quarter at work, and I found out late on Thursday that I hadn't made my goal after all; they're not counting appointments that need to be rescheduled for some arcane reason, and I needed three more to make my goal and get a bonus. So I spent a frantic Friday making many calls and getting more desperate as the day went on. I scraped it out, barely, but was so totally wiped by the end of the day, I actually slept until 8:45 on Saturday. That never happens.

Also on Thursday, my mom had to go to the hospital again. She wasn't getting better from the flu, and her doctor wanted her to check in and get taken care of. Flu at her age, and with her asthma, can be dangerous. I'm still not quite back to normal after two weeks, so I can understand the concern. They're taking good care of her, and she's getting lots of calls from relatives and friends to keep her occupied.

At least today should be fun. My friend B is having her annual Easter bonfire and Peeps roast. The sun is even expected to make an appearance. It'll be good to get out of the house and spend time with friends.

Happy Easter to you if you celebrate!

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lizziebelle: (artsy me)
The days seem to drag, but the weeks fly by. Already it is March, and only a couple weeks until the equinox. It feels like spring might actually be on time this year, but it's hard to tell. We keep flipping between unseasonably warm and bitter cold. Last weekend, I saw flowers in the wild! Crocuses, and witch hazel at the park. I stopped to photograph the witch hazel, and was astonished to see a bee! That's a good sign.

bee on witch hazel flowers, 2/28/16

The red-winged blackbirds are back; they've been hanging out in the swamp near my office, and it's so cheering to hear them every morning. I'm pretty sure I saw a turkey vulture the other day, but I was driving so I couldn't get a good look. Little signs of spring all over the place.

We didn't have a particularly difficult winter, but that doesn't make me any less eager for spring. I'm tired of being cold, tired of the darkness. The light is definitely at the end of the tunnel.
lizziebelle: (fox)
Right now, just after 9:00 in the evening, it's 57 degrees outside (that's almost 14 degrees Celsius). Just to remind you, a year ago we had sub-zero temperatures and several feet of snow on the ground. The other day I went for a walk, and found this in one of the pots I'd stowed under the deck for the winter:

Blooming on 1/30!

Mind you, I'm not complaining! And we can blame El Nino this time. But it sure is weird.
lizziebelle: (george)
The big storm never quite made it this far north, for a change. We got maybe 2" of snow, which is fine by me. I'm liking this winter much better than the last one. We had feet instead of inches this time last year. Friends & family to the south got hit this time. Sorry guys, but better you than me! ;)

It was already starting to get dark by the time it started snowing, so I didn't get out to take pictures of it. I have plans with a friend downtown today, so I think I'll walk there and see what I can capture. It looks pretty from here.

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I think I'll wait until the sun is good and high before I go out to shovel off the deck & steps, and clear off the car. For now, I am happy to be snug here in my little apartment.
lizziebelle: (moon)
Railroad tracks by Walden Pond

I was contacted on Flickr by someone from the Thoreau Society asking permission to use this photo, which was taken near the site of Thoreau's cabin at Walden. Since they asked nicely, and I fully approve of their work, I said yes. It will likely appear in their journal sometime next year, and possibly on some of their social media sites as well. I asked for credit (of course) and links to my social media.

So you never know what will come of a walk in the woods. :)
lizziebelle: (crow)
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If you love Halloween like I love Halloween, follow [livejournal.com profile] eldritchhobbit for a whole month of spooky goodness!
lizziebelle: (ganesha)
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On Saturday, I went with some friends to Salisbury Beach for a lovely afternoon/evening of grilling, cider, and saltwater therapy. I walked along the shore for quite a way, looking out at the endless water and contemplating its vastness. It was huge and mysterious. I imagined the people who had crossed it in ages past, not knowing what was on the other side, not knowing exactly where they were, not knowing how long they'd be on that tiny boat on the swelling waves. I don't know if I'd be brave enough to do that. I find the ocean overwhelming; I grew up far from its shores, with lakes and rivers my waterways. The first time I saw it was a couple days before I turned sixteen, when we took a family trip to Ocean City, NJ. It looked just like Lake Ontario, which I was familiar with, but it was bitter-tasting and the waves threatened to bowl me over. It was full of creatures like crabs and maybe sharks. It wasn't familiar Canada on the other side, it was Spain or maybe Portugal.

I live less than an hour from the ocean, but it rarely even registers on my radar. I'm not a beach person, being pale and easily sunburned. I do like walking along the beach, looking for shells and interesting rocks, but you can't really swim in the sea, so I don't bother.

The other night, I found it fascinating. Vast, unknowable, overwhelming, mysterious, and fascinating.

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Sep. 10th, 2015 09:07 pm
lizziebelle: (artsy me)
Thank you, [livejournal.com profile] puddleshark! Switching to a different browser did the trick. Here, have a lovely morning glory.

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Also, I had to change my Yahoo password, because I can never remember it when I have to sign in someplace new. This time, I wrote it down. Which I'll probably lose before I have to use it again.
lizziebelle: (artsy me)


We seem to be back to summer, after we had a tease of fall. 91* today. I figured if I didn't get out early, I wouldn't go out at all, so this morning I headed down to the river for a walk when it was still cool enough to do so. I saw a surprising amount of fungi, considering how little rain we've had recently. The river is pretty low, the lowest I've seen it this year.

Flickr is not behaving for me today. I can't get it to let me post a larger size; I had posted a thumbnail in a comment the other day, and now it won't let me scroll down to the larger sizes. The menu falls off the bottom of the page, and I can't scroll down anywhere. So frustrating. Why do they have to keep futzing with it? It worked just fine before!

Which is a long-winded way of saying, if you want to see the fungi (and other stuff), I guess you'll have to go to my Flickr page.

Also, grr.

flowers

Aug. 28th, 2015 07:30 am
lizziebelle: (artsy me)
After the neverending war with the woodchucks last year, I decided to plant sunflowers in a pot this year. Actually, it's a large plastic cauldron, because that's just more fun. They're not very tall, and the flowers are fairly small, but I have sunflowers! They're ever so lovely. I smile whenever I see them.

unfolding beauty

Soon I will have morning glories, too. I see several buds that promise to be flowers in a few days. Hooray for flowers.

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